He Wanted to Die at 7… Then Became Dangerous

He was just a child when the darkness found him.

By third grade, he wasn’t dreaming about the future… he was wishing it would end.

This episode of The Suffering Podcast is not just a conversation—it’s a collision between pain and purpose. Chris Stoddard grew up surrounded by chaos: abuse in the home, abandonment from a father, and a world that taught him early that survival meant becoming hard. Anger became his language. Violence became his outlet. And silence? That’s where the real storm lived.

What happens when a kid raised in trauma becomes a man fueled by rage?

What happens when that same man is forced to confront the damage… not just done to him—but by him?

From addiction and reckless violence to the edge of losing everything, Chris walks us through the moments most people hide—the panic attacks, the benzo addiction, the fights, the chaos he couldn’t escape… because it was all he ever knew. But buried deep in that destruction was something powerful: a moment of realization. A line he refused to cross. A choice to become something different.

This is a story about what trauma really does to the mind.

It’s about law enforcement, mental health, and the silent battles so many first responders and survivors fight every day.

It’s about what happens when you stop running—and finally face the pain.

And most importantly… it’s about what suffering can teach you—if you’re willing to listen.

👉 Watch until the end—because the final lesson might change how you see your own pain

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